Sunday

#230 // Dear Diary: Acutely Aware

Lately, I've been acutely aware of how happy I am in myself.

I've been sat down, or walking home and my thoughts just rest on a little positive note: "Sasha, you are really in a good place right now! And you are doing this thing they call life!"

I am showing up for myself. 
I am being bothered about my life.

I've set myself my 150 challenge, and I am focused. Maybe it's the endorphins. Maybe it's that when you're focused on a goal, you don't have time to notice the silly little things that might trip you up normally. You've got some place to be.

Maybe it's the kick-assy punchy playlists I've been listening to lately. Those persistent beats refuse to let me get bogged down in feelings, and I find myself swept up in them, trying to restrict my limbs from fully busting out serious moves on the tube.

Or perhaps Shonda Rimes is rubbing off on me, as I listen to her tell me about her Year Of Yes on Audible.

It could be happy times spent with family and friends lately. Or the anticipation of a new career challenge on the horizon.

It could be accepting where I am right now, and not demonising myself for "not being where I should be" or seemingly not being as far as x is. I may not be where I want to be in some respects, but it is what it is. The journey is far from over, and it's pointless to beat yourself up over things that have passed. Why are looking back? You're not headed in that direction. What's important is where you're going, and how you're going to get there.

So yeah, this was just a post - a pause - to live in this particular happy moment. I know that as a crew, we have a habit of not taking the time to stop and think, but maybe you should. That shit is good for the soul.