Friday

#227 // Dear Diary: Happy New Year

I didn't go out last night. 

I'm just way past paying 7 x the usual amount to go to the same club, just because it's December 31st. I had a Crabbies ginger beer and just chilled out with Ben. I've woken up sans banging headache, and I'm not gonna lie, I feel quite smug about it. 

I've been thinking about resolutions. They've amassed a bad rep over the last few years, but I think it's because we try and make them too big and insurmountable. Instead of actionable change, we imagine some unattainable overhaul of perfection. But I think it's good to have goals. Something to keep at the back of your mind, to keep you in alignment while thinking about where you've been, where you're going and how you're gonna get there.


For this year, I want to focus more on an overall feeling, rather than getting to a certain place. Over the last few months, I've discovered a peace inside me that I really want to keep topped up as I face whatever 2016 has to bring. I want to maintain this through keeping the good sleep pattern I've built up and continuing with my Mid Week Pamper evenings. It's refreshing, helps me get to the end of the week and ensures I've got the energy to be able to keep giving at work and at home.

Yoga is a must. In fact, exercise as a whole. You know you have a difficult relationship with your body, and don't feel comfortable in your skin right now. But perhaps the focus needs to shift. Instead of punishing and pummelling it into something you're happier to see in the mirror, but being miserable in the process, maybe the focus should be on self-respect. Bringing that mindfulness to your plate, by making better food choices. Doing a workout, not to punish your body, but as a means of saying thank you and being grateful for all it does. 

The mental benefits of exercise are entirely equal  to feeling strong and toned. But it's got to be what I enjoy to keep it up. I know that much. I've just signed up for some Latin and Ballroom classes after chair-dancing my way through another series of Strictly Come Dancing, so let's see how that goes. I'm by no means any good at yoga, and dancing could be an absolute disaster, but I'm all about finding what makes me feel good, and saying yes to it.

Money... money, money, money. You know it's a weakness, and it's something that you need to find a way to deal with and be better with. More to come on this. 

I look ahead to 2016 with openness as always. Ready for newness, embracing opportunities, remaining grateful and maintaining this peace inside me. Life will inevitably not always be rosy and have its bumps, but I feel like I'm going into it with the right attitude, which is all you can do really.